1. I want to know why the doctors refuse to give me the medication that works the best for my panic disorder here, yet others seem to get it prescribed and turn around and sell it! It pisses me off! Alprozolam/Xanax is the absolute best medication for my panic disorder. I was on that for over 10 years and that medication stops the attacks while also allowing me to feel completely NORMAL. I Had tried many different medication, most that did not work at all. I was originally put on Xanax down here back in 1995. When I moved back here, I was told they couldn’t give me that anymore. They tried Klonopin, but that made me feel drunk and I don’t drink. They put me on Ativan/Lorazapam. This medication helps, but takes an hour to work at all and causes me to feel even more tired. Xanax was made for someone just like me. I was told that Xanax has a high abuse level and that is why they wouldn’t give it to me. Let me tell you, I have NEVER abused medication, I have NEVER sold my medication and I have NEVER even shared my medication!!! So, I am not allowed to be on the one medication that helps the most and allows me to feel normal. WTF…
2. Why is it that doctors never seem to give enough medication to actually cover the massive pain you live with every day of your life? For the last 7 years I have been living with major intractable pain, that gets worse every damn year. It took 6 years to just get on a medication that actually does help some. After trying several different non-opioid medications that caused me to be severely depressed or suicidal or swell so bad I couldn’t walk at all. Now the CDC is going after opioid medication like a steak dangling before a starved dog. They are putting doctors in jail whose only crime was prescribing life saving opioids to patients in horrible pain. The patients that are able to get up and go to work only because they have opioid medication to help them accomplish it. The CDC wants ALL opioid medication gone by 2019. That’s right, even the ones used in the hospital after surgery! They are saying that we have an opioid crisis and people are dying. The problem is they are grouping all the drug addicts that die from heroin and street drugs in the same group as chronic pain patients, because heroin is an opioid. So what this does is take away the life saving medication from real pain patients. Now these patients can no longer get up and go to work. Several have already taken their own lives, because the pain (untreated) is more than they can endure. Many states here in the USA have adopted the CDC guidelines as rules and they have taken all the opioids away from the chronic pain patients there, or at the very least they have cut the medication way down. This terrifies me, because if or when this happens to me, I will be one of the ones that is forced to just end my life. Yes, you are going to see a massive increase in suicides over the next two years. Just do a search online for “opioid crisis”. You will see the many things that the CDC has already started.
3. Why am I constantly being punished for being poor? I worked for years and made very good money. It is NOT my fault that I became disabled or that my ex-husband chose to walk out on me while I was recovering from two major surgeries that saved my life. Yet, every time I turn around, I am being punished for being poor! If I had money, I would be able to pay the $100 for the Neurobehavioral Exam I need in order to obtain the Spinal Cord Stimulator, which may very well help with my constant intractable pain. If I had money, I could get much better treatment and the best medications. If I had money, I could afford to eat healthy, which would most likely help me on many levels. But I don’t have money. I struggle every month just to survive. Let me break it down for you in my monthly bills and income: Mortgage-$482, Electric (budget billing) $158, Gas (budget billing) $42, Water-$90, RX copays-$30 = $802.00. My income per month is $813.00. That leaves me with $11.00 a month to buy toilet paper, personal hygiene items, etc. I receive $200 a month in Foodstamps to replenish food items I need (like sugar,flour & condiments) and buy food to feed me for the entire month. This is very difficult to do, so in order to have food to eat every day, I have to pick the cheapest options. These are also the NOT good for you options. My vehicle quit running two years ago and I don’t have money to have it fixed, plus I don’t have funds to pay for insurance or gas anyway. My gas range (stove/oven) quit working over a year ago, again I do not have funds to have it fixed or buy a new one. The dryer is on its way out as well. Yes, I have tried everywhere here for any kind of help and there is none!
Ok, that’s enough, I am feeling extremely depressed now………….