I have fully enjoyed the complete peace and quiet here. No reason to tense up and be on edge. My son, however, informed me yesterday that my daughter has been making some very bad choices. I am not sure why, when I am away from home, she does this. So, I was pretty tense and stressed out yesterday when I found out she had grabbed my grandson and choked him. Luckily, my son intervened and stopped it. I am most likely going to have to have her removed again. If she would just stop doing what ever drug she can get her hands on, I am sure she would improve greatly! Enough of that, I am away from home so I don’t have to deal with those things…
I spent an hour doing a deep meditation yesterday. I always want to stay in there, my entire body so relaxed and it is very peaceful. I need to get back on track of doing a deep meditation every day. You connect with your inner self that way. It helps in many ways, even with your physical health.
My biggest problem when it comes to men is, expectations. I seem to always expect them to be or do things as I would, which leaves me very disappointed. I have been focusing on this part of me and reminding myself that no one is just like me and I cannot make someone do things just because I think they should. Let me tell you, this is a very hard thing to over come. Though, it is the one thing that always puts me in a sad place, so loose the expectations and I will not become greatly disappointed.
I have also found it very rare to find someone I am even slightly attracted to. I have found a couple and they have all turned out to be liars…lol! Recently, I found another one and I asked all the important questions, in which he responded very well too. So, I chose to give this a go. For me, I will only be with one man at a time. I put all I have into it and focus only on him. We have a lot in common, so what is the draw back? He is a truck driver, so I will see him once a month maybe. Now, this can be a good thing if I can stop with the expectations. I keep busy and I have said before how great it would be to just see my guy on the weekends or every other weekend. With him I will only see him a couple of days a month or so. He keeps saying how it really is hard on relationships and how he has not ever found someone who can handle it. It is all in how you perceive things and react to them. Keeping it all positive will be key and enjoying the time we do have together. We text every day, so that is good. I am even willing to go on a run with him in order to spend more time together. So, I will see where this goes. He has one son and he is 16 years old. I want to find the one who will be my best friend and who I can enjoy my senior years with!
Back to working on myself…
1. Notice and catch all negative thoughts. Do NOt say them out loud and change them to a positive thought.
2. Say Positive Affirmations every day!
3. Take the time to meditate, even if it is just a 20 minute deep breathing session!
4. Do something every day to pamper yourself!
5. Put forth effort to look at people, be in the moment and smile!